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We don’t experience memory in linear fashion, nor even in a strictly coherent one. It’s peppered with tangents and strange loops. It’s multithreaded. It’s not always made up of words. Why should a memoir strive to strip memory completely of this context?

ally is an ergodic, arborescent, semiautobiographical work about identity, mental health, spirituality, and the mutability of the past. A lot of the information contained within is real, some of it isn’t. Each page is structured as a conversation between myself and my ally, a mirror reflection of myself.

Based off the interactive project at, this book explores different facets of my life — some true, some embellished, some wholly fictitious — in a non-linear, ergodic fashion, using color, page-layout, and mixed-media to create a book more experience than memoir.

Launch party

You are cordially invited to attend an online launch party on June 1st.


The paperback is now available for pre-order. All copies ordered direct are signed. You can also pre-order from Amazon or Barnes & Noble

You can also pre-order the PDF ebook. I have yet to figure out how to sign those. Sorry.

Content warning

Several sections focus on suicide, self-harm, rape, sexual content, and poor mental health.

Advance praise

“Cleareyed yet powerfully immediate … A fresh, daring exploration of lived experience.”

Kirkus Reviews

“I felt I was chasing down fractions of the author’s soul. Chasing them not because I got this to read and review, but because I deeply wanted to. So I could put them together and solve an ultimate puzzle whose picture would contain some incomprehensible beauty.”

Linnea Capps

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